Wednesday, June 29, 2005 I just had the worst epiphany ever posted at 4:12 PM Ever since I was a teenager, I have looked forward to my 30s and 40s. I always thought that would be the best time of my life. By then I would understand who I was, and I would be settled into my life. (I also assumed I would be married and have kids. No problem on the first one; so much for the second one. But I digress.) I didn't spend much time thinking about the meantime, but I guess I assumed I would get all the "exploring" out of the way, get all that "figuring stuff out" done so I could relax. I'm twenty-seven years old. I've barely explored anywhere, and I haven't figured out anything! What am I doing with my life? Why am I sitting around in my underwear reading blogs and watching MacGyver at 4 in the freaking afternoon? I may be somewhat "trapped" by our current lack of funds, but that doesn't mean I can't do anything! It just means I have to try harder to make the things I want to do work out. But instead, I've just been sitting around whining and wishing. I'm going to run out of "exploring" time before I've actually done anything! Comments Don't be down on yourself about things. Lots of people claim to have it "figured out" but few really do. I thought a lot of the same things, I'd have a wife, 2.5 kids, a fun job, a house, a dog and 2 cats in the yard... it didn't turn out like that at all. I'm divorced, have an ok job, no kids (and I think ppl with kids treat me differently b/c of it), no house, no dog, three cats. I can't explain the MacGuyver watching. Switch to The Guyver instead, much stranger. And put on some pants, there's children on the Internet. :-) Deciding on a goal and going for it is one way to get out of the dul-drums, going back to school, volunteering somewhere (i recommend habitat for humanity, you help out and can see what you've accomplished), figure out what part of the Appilacation Trail your going to walk. Don't make it something unacheivable, make it something you would enjoy and something you know you can work for. For me, I want to be ready to buy a house by the end of the year, I'm putting aside stupid purchases and cutting back on expenses, saving some away and just trying to get myself in a position to buy. It's not impossible, but it's not easy either... If I sound like I have all the answers I don't, not by a long shot. I have some ideas and know the things I've gone through. I know what helps me and what I depend on. You'll need to find some of those things out and usually you'll find them along the way to another destination in life... By  slackv at Wednesday, June 29, 2005 7:03:00 PM   Definitely don't be down. I love sitting around in my underwear. A lack of funds can be very depressing, but it just takes time to work everything out. Thanks for the comments and the link! You have a great blog and I hope you get to Japan soon! By  Miklos Fejer at Wednesday, June 29, 2005 11:27:00 PM   slackv, I wonder if I can adjust to being comforted by the fact that nothing is certain, rather than being comforted by "faith" in the belief that someday everything will make sense... MacGyver 0wnz. I've seen The Guyver the movie, wherein Mark Hamill metamorphoses into a giant preying mantis. There is no comparison. The kids'll get over it ;> Thanks for your comments, I appreciate it. Miklos, thanks for coming by, and for the kind words! I hope I can get back to Japan soon too ;> By  Heather Meadows at Thursday, June 30, 2005 7:07:00 AM   Post a Comment

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