Two and a half hours ago I was going to bed, but before I did, I wanted to inform all three of my readers that I had a good day today.
That, at least, was how I started out the blog entry that was lost by my net connection suddenly going down.
I wanted to say that today was good. It had its bittersweet moments, but it was good. Getting out of the apartment and doing things was nice. I rode up with Sean to Fort Gordon and then took the car on errands to the oriental market (unfortunately closed), the mall, Best Buy, Allstate, and Wal-Mart. I bought four pairs of shoes at Payless for $54. I bought Top Gun, Army of Darkness, and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on DVD. I had McDonald’s for lunch, and I did quite a bit of 2go-Boxing. I made a video for Connor and then talked to him on the phone. And while waiting for my net connection to come back up, I finished reading Pastwatch: The Redemption of Christopher Columbus by Orson Scott Card.
All in all, it’s been a pretty good day, and, most surprisingly, I was in a pretty good mood for most of it.
Sometimes I felt sad. In Wal-Mart I almost exploded into tears upon sight of a pregnant woman packing receiving blankets into a cart laden with goodies for newborns. Talking to Connor, and hearing him say most often “I wish you could stay here” and second most often “I really miss you”, my eyes stung, and I felt just as lonely as I ever have. With Sean away in North Carolina on business–to pick up his RTI name badge, he says–it is a far more direct aloneness. Feeling this pining for companionship, I have to shudder at the thought of how I keep leaving Sean alone here for weeks on end when I go home to visit my family.
On another day, the sad things would have dominated. But somehow, today, they didn’t. I feel good, and wholly satisfied, even though I lost my original post. I’ve recreated the important parts here; if I think of something I missed, I can always tack it on later. But in truth, those were the things that were on my mind; rewriting does much for concision.
I don’t know why today was better…but I like it!