I’m not working out today.
We didn’t bike-ride yesterday because of the horrible thunderstorm. That was fine with me, though, because I felt like crap. I stayed at home all night, reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix until Sean came to bed at 1:20 am. I had finished about 3/5 of the book.
I ate that double quarter pounder for dinner yesterday, and then I made brownies and ate quite a few of them. After that I felt nauseated, to the point that I really, really wanted to throw up, so I sat next to the toilet and tried to do it, but nothing came out. I think the food was too far digested by that point…either that or my body has forgotten how to throw up. I haven’t done it in many years.
Anyway, I’m not sure why I was nauseated, because I didn’t think that was all that much food, but maybe my body had gotten used to smaller portions over the course of this week.
I keep thinking “What if I’m pregnant?!?!?!?”, but I always think ridiculous stuff like that. Usually I don’t post it because I don’t like looking ridiculous, but today’s different and I don’t know why.
I am still waiting on my next period, though. It seems like it should be about time for it. Assuming I’m going to have another one, anyway.
The Harry Potter book is great…towards the beginning, when Harry’s mood was constantly sour and he kept blowing up at people and doing/saying vindictive things, I was really taken aback. I’ve never pretended that Harry was the good, sweet, charming, can-do-no-wrong pristine example for children…but I am simply floored by how brutally honest the portrayal is. He’s 15 in this book, and it’s obvious. Even when I can see that Harry is overreacting and not looking at the whole picture, I know without a doubt that he is acting exactly the way he should.
And so, really, are all of them…Cho Chang, whose inexplicable (at least to Harry) behavior is so accurately diagnosed by Hermione; Sirius, who is a little wild from being cooped up; Ron, who’s finally in the limelight and not sure how to take the pressure…it’s just excellent, all of it. This is some of the best characterization I’ve ever seen. It’s been this way in all of the books, but now things are more complicated, and we see that they are complicated not just to be complicated, but complicated due to the characters’ own growth and change.
The deception and underground movements in this book really inspire my inner conspiracy theorist, too…I’ve been thinking about how Harry and the D.A. are doing so well in practicing Defense Against the Dark Arts, and it occurred to me that they might not get their O.W.L.s in that subject anyway–for knowing too much. After all, if the Ministry of Magic can interfere so deeply in the daily activities of the school, who’s to say they won’t stick their nasty fingers into the administration of the O.W.L.s? (It occurred to me that the Ministry might have always been in charge of the O.W.L.s, but if they were, surely Hermione would have thought of this already. Then again, maybe she did, and didn’t think it would matter…)
Anyway, the reason I haven’t just finished the book to find out what happens is that I had to sleep, and then when I got up this morning I went on a little cleaning spree. The kitchen was a bit messy, and I needed to start some laundry. But now that everything seems to be right with the apartment, I’m going to dive back into the book. So off I go :)
(If anyone’s concerned about how my diet will fare over the weekend, don’t worry. I don’t plan on ruining everything. I haven’t even eaten yet, even though I woke up with really bizarre stomach-growling. I’m going to try to eat real food, drinking Slim-Fasts for meals when I can stand it, but not snacking. If I have food for two meals instead of one, or even three meals instead of one, I can live with that, but I don’t want to shoot myself in the foot by pigging out on sweets or something.)