Well, I can tell you what the secret was now

I applied for a job in Japan.

I didn’t want to tell anyone because I figured most people wouldn’t want me to go. You know, friends, family. I was superstitious about having negative energy directed towards the prospect.

It turns out that, as usual, I don’t have enough experience. This time, it’s a matter of not having enough experience living in Japan.

I was told that my cover letter was one of the better ones received in a long time, and that if I moved to Japan and stayed there for awhile I could reapply. They don’t want someone who will bail on them. I can understand that.

I worked hard in my cover letter to convey that living in Japan was what I wanted, but I guess that wasn’t enough.

If they could see my tears now, do you think they would reconsider?