I was very “Oh, I’m so awesome!” in my New Year’s Resolution post, but since then I haven’t been awesome at all. I can place some of the blame on two unexpected periods, and some of the blame on cold weather that discouraged me from getting on the bike…but these are excuses, not reasons. The fact is that I have been lazy.

I’ve also been weak; the photos on this blog can attest to that. Look at all the crap I’ve been eating! I’ve fallen back into my old habits, where I feel bad, so I eat, and then I feel bad about eating, so I eat more.

If this doesn’t stop I’m never going to lose any more weight. In fact, I’ll gain it all back.

It’s gotten to the point that I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I haven’t felt this way in a long time.

I’m posting this in the hopes that it will serve as fresh motivation. Last week I started going to a personal trainer; we did measurements, and they are as follows:

Height (in) 63.3
Weight (lbs) 214
Chest Girth (in) 45
Abdomen Girth (in) 40.75
Waist Girth (in) 40.5
Hips Girth (in) 49
Waist to Hip Ratio .83
Bicep Girth R (in) 14.2
Thigh Girth R (in) 26
Calf Girth R (in) 16.5
Body Mass Index (BMI) 37.5
Body Composition
3 Site Skinfold 25.2%
Lean Body Mass 160 lbs
Sum of Skinfolds 67.5